boss just rang me and said the person who was working my saturday shift so I could have a weekend off to spend with Summergirl and go to Armageddon with 2 uni friends I haven't properly hung out with in years has made plans so I have to go in and work Saturday and chnage all fucking plas

i wanted to spend time with summergirl and tailgunner and kerry i wanted time away from that shithole

i want to get really fucking drunk and forget that i'm alive but there isn't enough alcohol in the house

probably not enough alcohol in the world

jaq sent me a scary text yesterday and i haven't heard back from her either

 iknow i promised the doctor id ring EPS but i don't want them to put me in hospital i just need out of the deli and away from this fucking bullshit

it's ok for chatterbox to take 2 weeks off and leave us without even acting management but I can't have 2 days off.

can i just give all my bone marrow to cassie now please

Bullet points because I'm knackered

~They're only hiring Casual contracts at South right now. Have to go back in 6-7 weeks when they MIGHT be open to transfers.

~(New)StoreBoss offered me checkout and trolley shifts. I JUST WANT OUT OF DELI

~Seafood Dude agreed to work 4-7pm on Sunday for me so I can go to Armageddon.

~Chatterbox spent the ENTIRE time I was at work sorting cover whining at me about things I had nothing to do with but were somehow my fault. She's not even trying to be subtle anymore.

~Building armour for my human!Drift cosplay. I'm going as the colossal robotic Weeb. I have TWO DAYS to complete it. Going to cheat on the legs by getting 2nd-hand cargo pants and making an armoured overskirt.

I have 74 pages under his tag on my art/writing/nerdery tumblr WHYYYYYYYYYYYY

~Dralion is more energetic and vocal. She ripped up my hand trying to escape the cage.

~My hair is falling out from stress again. This hasn't happened since I finished Uni.

~Cassie's port is blocked. She has to go up to Christchurch for a new one. (Port for her Chemo meds. Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. She turned 3 in hospital last year)

~I made a metric fuckload of apricot jam with the box of orchard seconds the parentals randomly gave me.

That's about it. I'm going to sort Dralion out and go to bed.

~Peri

What the hell?!?

I just got this email.

"Dear Blogger User,

We're writing to tell you about an upcoming change to the Blogger Content Policy that may affect your account.

In the coming weeks, we'll no longer allow blogs that contain sexually explicit or graphic nude images or video. We'll still allow nudity presented in artistic, educational, documentary or scientific contexts, or where there are other substantial benefits to the public from not taking action on the content.

The new policy will take effect on 23 March 2015. After this policy comes into force, Google will restrict access to any blog identified as being in violation of our revised policy. No content will be deleted, but only blog authors and those with whom they have expressly shared the blog will be able to see the content that we've made private.

Our records indicate that your account may be affected by this policy change. Please refrain from creating new content that would violate this policy. We would also ask you to make any necessary changes to your existing blog to comply as soon as possible so that you won't experience any interruptions in service. You may also choose to create an archive of your content via Google Takeout.

For more information, please look here (https://support.google.com/blogger?p=policy_update).

Yours sincerely,
The Blogger Team"

I've never posted porn! I say 'fuck' a lot and have posted pictures of gymnasts and stuff.

Maybe that's what their bot picked up?

~Peri

Brainspaz and Dral Tantrums

Ok called into work sick because I need a mental health day after the fucking BOLLOX day I had there yesterday I need a fucking day to destress before i explode.

We had an major Rugby match, and international cricket match and a national pipe band competition on and two of the people she rostered didn't come because they were already in other departments or other stores.

Plus she hasn't approved my leave for Armageddon so I've dropped over $100 on a cosplay I probably won't be able to wear.

Spent most of yesterday alternately dry-heaving from stress, about to fucking cry and raging so hard I actually yelled at Boris McSnailpace to GO SERVE THE CUSTOMERS while I was on the phone to the duty manager.

Because NewBoss wouldn't sort it out, she wanted the duty manager to do something.

I found cover for my Saturday shift and all but the last 3 hours of the Sunday one.

She kept pushing about why I wasn't coming in today even when I said I'd rather talk to the doctor about it and said I was "extremely fucking suicidal".

I'm not. Not yet, anyway.

I'm not in the best place but I'm not in the worst and I fucking need to take a day to look after myself so I don't end up back in the GP's office admitting to more self-harm.

My sanity is worth a bit more to me than $80.

She said:
"Ok then. See you tomorrow."

Lol sometimes I'm glad her english isn't the best.

Although if she spreads that around work I WILL BE EXTREMELY FUCKING UPSET.

I need out of that department.

Should I stay in this store or go to the one where Buttinski works but has no power?

Decisions, decisions.

Store boss knows I'm looking for a transfer, so does Anya (2IC we sometimes borrow)

Here are some more videos I made of Dralion. She has come up with a Death Yowl.

A morning conversation:


She threw a tantrum when I went to the gym:


The Nightmare Meowl:


Ok I'm going to make more coffee.

~Peri

Chatterbox changed my hours without consulting me. (Ya know, as she is acting 2IC and all that).

I'm not on a casual contract.

My hours cannot be changed without prior agreement by me.

I have a verbal agreement with NewBoss to work 1430-1900 on Tuesdays, not the 1030-1900 Chatterbox has rostered me for.

My CONTRACT states 1100-1900 on Tuesdays.

She sent me a text at 1911 tonight when I would normally be on my way home to tell me to check the roster.

If I hadn't stayed late to make sure things got done then I would have had to turn around to go back and check the roster.

I text her right back and said that IF she had consulted me before changing them she would know that I couldn't do the changed shift because of a doctors appointment scheduled a month ago. This is partly true since I have to go back this week for a checkup of the increased venlafaxine dosage and to check-in about self harm and suicidal impulses.

I've checked with Seafood Dude and he says she can't do this.

I'm not going in until 1430.

Thing is NewBoss is back tomorrow and I know she won't have my back.

I'm so fucking freaked out and angry I'm burping stomach acid and my hands are shaking.

What's funny is if they try to have me up for a no-show or demand a medical certificate they don't exactly have a leg to stand on for the first scenario and they store has to pay for the certificate.

In other news Mum is a pain in the ass, I'm fat, Dralion is more energetic and stroppy.

All this and it's only Monday.

~Peri

This February 14th I would like to say

My cousin met her Christian Grey.

She is buried in the same cemetery as my grandparents

Who both outlived her.

~Peri



The book series and film showcase and romantacise the worst kinds of domestic abuse under a window-dressing of wannabe-BDSM.
If you or anyone you know is being abused please seek help before he kills you.

Cage Arrest

The vet reckons the break looks well-aligned enough that with 30 days of cage rest it should fibrose solidly enough for Dralion to keep her leg.

I made you a bogus news report with my shitty RP/News Reporter accent.



She is currently lying in the clean litterbox and half-assedly cleaning herself :/

THIRTY FUCKING DAYS.

help me

~Peri

FUCK FUCK FUCK

Just heard from the vet.

Dralion's right rear femur broke and healed badly while she was away.

She's at the vet for observation over the weekend in case she was hit by a car and had internal injuries as well. (Because of the extent of her weightloss)

I can't afford the $NZD1000+ for corrective surgery, so they specialist is going to assess her for amputation on Monday. Can't rule out her needing to be put to sleep but I don't wanna think about it right now. She needs bloodwork done as well to make sure she would survive the operation. 

2015 can go fuck itself.

~Peri

Dralion videos

I made this video of Dralion late December before she went missing:



And this one today when she came back.



Poor baby.

She's already had 2 packets of wet food, 3/4 cup of dry food and about 1/2 cup of pet milk. I've gotten most of the biddybid seeds and other spiky nasties out of her coat.

If I leave the lounge too long she comes looking for me.

Getting up on bed and chairs is hard so she's sitting beside my chair on her blanket with a hot water bottle.

~Peri

DRALION JUST CAME HOME

very skinny limping on a hindleg
time for vet call and pampering

Oh fuck the condom broke.

Gonna have to get the morning after pill so I don't curse an innocent with my Brainspaz.

I made a Vlog for you last week and forgot to upload it because of Summergirl.

It's still relevant, so I'll upload it in a few days and fill you in on what's happened since.

Ugh too much to do and not enough time to do it in.

Oh, we're officially having the worst drought since 1999 and they've stopped irrigation takes from North Otago rivers and now on the Taieri, too.

Fucking hell.

~Peri